writing stuff here is hard. i'm not really good at organizing my thoughts. when i do try to write something here, it always ends up being a crazy unfocused mess. i guess that's why i called it "thoughts" and not "essays".

i don't write very often, apart from text messages. writing is a skill i want to get better at, but i don't have time to sit down and really focus on it so i thought a good way to practice would be having this place. you'll get better at stuff if you practice every day right?

but it's still up to me to do the writing every day. and to come up with topics. i'm a very spread out person, i have a lot of interests but i don't exactly do much. i like cars, but i don't have a car. i like cooking, but i don't have the time or space to try out new recipes. i like drawing, but i don't feel most of my drawings are worth sharing. i have about a million side projects, but i don't think any of them are at a point worth sharing either.

to be fair, things like cooking and drawing are entirely up to me. i can make time for them if i really want to. i could share my drawings even when i don't like them. and i could work on those side projects more often.

this is kind of the same thought i had last time. seems like a bad sign for the longevity of this website lol. i think from now on i'm gonna try to avoid repeating things.

i don't have a neat way to end this. i am still learning to write after all.

bye o/